Have you ever thought about going on a tour of your own mind - all the rooms contained therein - with God as your guide? Exercising the willingness to open up the darkest closet and invite Him inside? Like saying; "God, since you know your way around here, let me walk with you and listen. What do I need to examine? What do I need to throw away? Where do I need to redecorate?"
When my life was a real mess, I hated being alone. Especially in my own head. It was hard to fall asleep at night - the thoughts were so loud. Lies I needed to go over to make sure I covered all the bases. Conviction I avoided as I reasoned away my disobedience. At night, there was no outside noise to cover up all the thoughts I didn't want to hear.
Romans 8:5-7
Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; 7the sinful mind is hostile to God. It does not submit to God's law, nor can it do so.
Thankfully, repentance and healing has taken place in my life. I am still a quirky woman and I'm sure God gets a real laugh when He hears half of my thoughts. And other times I know He frowns. Especially when I am behind the wheel of a car. On the days extra angels are required and certain drivers are obnoxious. Well, when I'm obnoxious. But today, so much has changed. I embrace times of silence. Reflection doesn't make me squirm. I like being alone in my own head - having conversations with God. Looking over decisions I made, considering the days ahead - seeking wisdom from my Father. I cherish the peace that only God can bring to a troubled mind. God redecorates those dark places with bold shades of Truth and Love. It makes laying my head on the pillow at night blissfully sweet these days.
Psalm 26:2-3
Test me, O LORD, and try me,
examine my heart and my mind;
for your love is ever before me,
and I walk continually in your truth.
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